I’m Out: The Curtain has Risen.

The curtain has been opened.
โ€ฆand this is my show ๐Ÿค“.

Itโ€™s been over 35 years since I have entered the Worlds Greatest Soap Opera – Retail and I have not been honest with all of you that I have worked with.

During those years I was:

๐Ÿ‘‰ Exhausted.
๐Ÿ‘‰๐Ÿป Scared, frightened or was it more worried?
๐Ÿ‘‰๐Ÿฝ Confused.

I did not know how to suppress all the โ€œwonderfulโ€ side effects of being BiPolar to which I did not know I was during that time.

The EXHAUSTION would come on suddenly like a sack of bricks; to which I was unable to move but still pushed on as this was my ‘Job”.

I was continuously worried and SCARED about everything I did as I would second guess my work, overthink a whisper that I overheard thinking it was about me and hoping I could keep up with the pace of the demands of the job.

The CONFUSION part was simple as thinking I was better than I am but not knowing why I could not achieve these standards …or did I ๐Ÿค”๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ˜ญ?

So do you know what I did?

I created a persona and hid myself behind a CURTAIN like the Wizard of Oz and made myself into a character larger than who I actually was.

I kept up this Persona for decades until I realized after being diagnosed being BiPolar that I can no longer be the Man behind the Mask as my energy reserves were nearing empty.

So here I am today.

Still strugglingโ€ฆbut now knowing.

Still hiding my symptoms,
but at least I now know why they like to play that game of hide and go seek; and how I can play the game alongside.

But in reality,

Some days are better than others.

But now I know that the woven fabric of a Mental Health opportunity is not your enemy but something that you have to work alongside with, highlight the strengths that come with it and a put out your hand as a peace offering and have a nice firm handshake and agreement.

Drop the mic.

Weight off of my shoulders.

โ€ฆand the good fight and story continues on for another day.

๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ ๐—ฃ๐˜€: ๐—œ๐—ณ ๐˜†๐—ผ๐˜‚ ๐˜€๐—ฒ๐—ฒ ๐—ฎ โ˜• ๐—–๐—ผ๐—ณ๐—ณ๐—ฒ๐—ฒ ๐—–๐˜‚๐—ฝ ๐—ถ๐—ฐ๐—ผ๐—ป ๐—ผ๐—ป ๐˜๐—ต๐—ถ๐˜€ ๐—ฝ๐—ฎ๐—ด๐—ฒ, ๐—ฝ๐—น๐—ฒ๐—ฎ๐˜€๐—ฒ ๐—ฑ๐—ผ๐—ปโ€™๐˜ ๐—ฏ๐—ฒ ๐—ฎ๐—ณ๐—ฟ๐—ฎ๐—ถ๐—ฑ ๐˜๐—ผ ๐—ฐ๐—น๐—ถ๐—ฐ๐—ธ ๐—ผ๐—ป ๐—ถ๐˜ ๐—ฎ๐—ป๐—ฑ ๐—•๐˜‚๐˜† ๐— ๐—ฒ ๐—ฎ ๐—–๐—ผ๐—ณ๐—ณ๐—ฒ๐—ฒ ๐—ฎ๐˜€ ๐—ถ๐˜ ๐˜€๐˜‚๐—ฝ๐—ฝ๐—ผ๐—ฟ๐˜๐˜€ ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐—ณ๐—ผ๐˜‚๐—ป๐—ฑ๐—ฎ๐˜๐—ถ๐—ผ๐—ป ๐—ผ๐—ณ ๐˜„๐—ต๐—ฎ๐˜ ๐—œ ๐—ฑ๐—ผ ๐—ณ๐—ผ๐—ฟ ๐—ฏ๐—ผ๐˜๐—ต ๐—บ๐˜† ๐—ฅ๐—ฒ๐—ป๐—ฒ๐—ด๐—ฎ๐—ฑ๐—ฒ ๐—ฆ๐—ถ๐˜๐—ฒ๐˜€.

Have a PHENOMENAL ๐Ÿคฉ Day.

(Not my best picture below ๐Ÿคช).

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