Am I Losing It?

The following article was NOT going to be posted due to thinking this would be a CLM – Career Limiting Move.

But I then decided that if I write this article and it helps one person or helps me out then it was worth it.

So here it goes.

It has started to increase its pace as it slowly fades away to gray.

🀯 My Memory and Mind are running away from me.

I am struggling.

It has always been a concern of mine that I was not able to remember the simple things, like where my keys, my wallet, etc.

But that is just life for many of us.

Now it has decided to stranglehold and morph across my big brain and embarrassingly drain my ability to:

πŸ‘‰ Remember when I have met you. It’s quite embarassing when you see someone and ask them if we have met. Unfortunately and all too common we have within the last 6 months and I have no recollection of this.

πŸ‘‰πŸ½ Coming back home 2-3 times to ensure that Mr. Ralphs cage door is closed.

πŸ‘‰πŸΌ When Friends and Peers are bringing up past events and I don’t remember being part of them.

πŸ‘‰πŸ» Wanting to call my Psychiatrist and not remembering her name.

πŸ‘‰ Michelle having to complete my sentences like a game of Mad Libs.

πŸ‘‰πŸ½ Memorizing scripts. It can take up to 2 hours to remember one line; and this is my job to do so.

And finally,

πŸ‘‰πŸΌ My worst nightmare came true last week; I forgot where I parked my car downtown…..twice πŸ€“.

Yes, it can be a side effect of my medications, being BiPolar or even an oncoming Depression episode; but I don’t care and I am starting to get worried as it affects not only how I perform at my job but it affects my family as well.

πŸ”₯ By the way, it takes a lot for me to get nervous about something and when I am at this point you know I am stressing about the unknown.

I do use the tools I have at my disposal, such as Google Keep, sending myself Email Reminders, Stickie Notes and of course the good old Calendar.

This story is to be continued as I go through the usual testing including an MRI, blood work alongside the care of my Doctors.

I know I am not alone with this.

But, not knowing how far gone I am is in question.

Stay tuned. More to come.

……. Unless I forget 🀯.

β€œ Dearly beloved
We are gathered here today
To get through this thing called life

Electric word life
It means forever and that’s a mighty long time
But I’m here to tell you
There’s something else
The afterworld

A world of never-ending happiness
You can always see the sun, day or night

So when you call up that shrink in Beverly Hills
You know the one Dr. Everything’ll Be Alright
Instead of asking him how much of your time is left
Ask him how much of your mind, baby

‘Cause in this life
Things are much harder than in the afterworld
In this life
You’re on your own. ”
⭐️ Prince

Have a PHENOMENAL 🀩 Day.

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