When Did I Know?

I did not know.
I did not know until it was late in the game.
I did not know that I was – – please keep on reading.

Until…

I only got my BiPolar 2 diagnosis late in my 30’s by my Doctor being curious about my Speech Patterns.

I was talking to him on speed mode to whch made some of words in·com·pre·hen·si·ble.

There were other signs throughout the decdes of my life,
but this one single one put my life into a New Category.

I now have the title of being art of an Exclusive Roller Coaster Club;
I am now labeled as being Bipolar 2.

…and you know what?

I was excited for that designation, as it allowed all the pieces of my life puzzle from toddler to adult to fall into place; and finally whispered to me that it was not always my fault.

And boy,
did it answer questions as my life splashed before my eyes like a tidal wave when this floodgate was opened.

It was my Big Brain on Brad that steered me.

👉 It steered me to the left into making rash decisions.

👉 It steered me to the right towards killing my energy levels.

👉 It steered towards the middle of the road with constant confusion as to questioning who I really m

Yes, I may have given that impression of confidence,
but that impression was Fucking (Yes, I did just swear, so Boo!) tiring too keep up.

…but in the end it was not all bad, as I am still here as did you know; between 20% to 60% of us individuals with BiPolar 2 will attempt suicide.

So,

Here I am blabbing on about me, but moreover I hope this spiel helps others (like you) that are reading this to look at themselves in a mirror and say;

“I think I may need Help”

It’s never too late, and asking for help is
a sign of Strength and NOT Weakness.

And Yes,

Some days are better than others,
🤴 Some days I still am the King of the world,
👸 Some days I am the Queen of my bed.
🃏 Some days I am the Joker of your worlds and always on.

♠️ At the end of it all I NOW have that Ace in my pocket which allows me to trump everything that is thrown my way and understand the why’s to be able to regain control and Steer MY Ship accordingly.

Please feel free to share your stories and / or reach out to me directly to have a Coffee Chat.

And as always,
Please Have a PHENOMENAL 🤩 Day.
#thatisall

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