I am a Strange Animal.

I have been discovered 🤩.
This journey has taken 10+ years to do so.

Who discovered me?

It was me.

Didn’t see that coming did you?

It was close to 10 years ago when I got the diagnosis of being BiPolar 2 (not BiPolad 1, as there are differences).

I am part of the exclusive club of the 1% of Canadians who are considered being so.

Did this make sense to me?

Was I surprised?

Yes and no.

The signs were there my entire life.

👉 The rapid cycling between Mania and Depression.
👉 Problems with Memory and Concentration.
👉 Just being tired all the time.
👉 Pressured speech https://renegaderetailer.blog/2021/01/13/bawitdaba/.

Just to name a few 😂.

Do you know what?

I could not be happier with this gift  that was given to me as I now am able to pull on its reigns and steer it where I want it to go.

I am so thankfull for this gift as is has made me the creative person I am today.

But,

👉 This has cost me relationships.
👉 I overspent and went through bankruptcy (classic symptom of being BiPolar).
👉 I made poor decisions that left others scratching their heads seeking answers.
👉 I am on several different medications that are quite expensive, but the company I work with has a great insurance plan…phew and thank you.

And I continue to be treated with monthly visits to my Psychiatrist who I appreciate more than the world itself as she treats me like a human and not a number to file away.

Do I fear being transparent and exposing myself for you to see?

Do i fear that opening up will cost me job opportunities?

Hell yeah 🫣.

But the consequences are greater if I don’t.

As doing so I hope and I know that I am helping others, and it is so cathartic.

In case you are asking; I am back to where I want to be and know where I should be.

At the end of the day it has be always been normal for others to,
Call me different,
Call me a Ray of Sunshine ☀️,
…and my favourite; A Strange Animal.

So this leads me in to summarizing this spiel by quoting lyrics from a Canadian artist known as Gowan:

🎧 Watching your moves
They look so radical
Hearing your words
They sound fanatical
Something inside reveals you’re magical.

You’re a Strange Animal
That’s what I know
But you’re a Strange Animal
I’ve got to follow.
– Gowan https://lnkd.in/gRnbR5_F

Knowing is half the battle, and the other half is putting that tail between your legs and seeking help as this is a sign of strength and NOT weakness.

PLEASE, if you are someone (or know someone) who is going through #mentalhealth opportunities and don’t have anyone to reach out to,
PLEASE reach out to me and we can have a ☕ coffee (or any other tasty beverage) chat.

Have a PHENOMENAL day 朗.
#thatisall

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